Grrr

I feel like my foul mood has started to rub off on those around me. So . . . I will get out all my irritations in the first paragraph and then let's move on, shall we? During this week alone, I have received word of three friends' pregnancies. It is so hard to be happy for them, I am not going to lie. I am, but the *old me*, which could quite possibly still be the me that is trying again, if that makes sense, still gets all worked up inside when I see how easy it is for someone to conceive. Other annoyances? We are having our first heat wave here and I have killed 6 scorpions in my house in the past month. I fucking hate bugs, especially ones that could potentially hurt my child. I don't sleep well because of this and so now I am irritated AND tired.

On a lighter note, I got a new camera from my husband for Mother's Day, which I am loving. I also get to indulge in my post-Mother's Day spa day tomorrow for three grand hours. I need a few hours to just clear my head and do something for me. Overall, I think I have been pretty calm with my range of emotions lately, but slowly I am starting to feel things creep up on me that I don't like. Maybe it is just because now I can count the amount of months I have been trying again on two hands. I don't know.

But anyway, maybe tomorrow will give me a chance to refocus and relax a little. Ovulation is approaching. I am pretending that it isn't important, but it has been weighing on my mind.

Comments

[cat, galloping]

i hate the new pregnancy announcements too. the second pregnancies. i overheard a womans at work (who i don't even know) announcing... and her first is only 10 months old, and i got annoyed.

[Dooneybug]

I know it's NV and the desert and dry and all...but scorpions sound just hideous. Kind of makes my millipedes inconsequential. Ugh, my sympathies are with you.

I hope your Spa Day was grand and that you had a nice time relaxing and zoning out for a bit!

[Heather]

I'm there with you. My frustrations are increasing, especially as I think today will result in a negative. I feel it all over. I'm starting to feel the need to curl up in fetal position and stay that way all day. Or put up my middle finger at the universe and have another shot of wheatgrass.

[Anna]

I still get mad when I hear of people who just "don't prevent" and get pg immediately, and I'm almost 35w pregnant! I guess I'll NEVER get over it. You have plenty of company, so please complain away. We're here for you. :)
I'm so jealous of the spa day...Hope it was all you dreamed of. Thinking of you!