Grrr
I feel like my foul mood has started to rub off on those around me. So . . . I will get out all my irritations in the first paragraph and then let's move on, shall we? During this week alone, I have received word of three friends' pregnancies. It is so hard to be happy for them, I am not going to lie. I am, but the *old me*, which could quite possibly still be the me that is trying again, if that makes sense, still gets all worked up inside when I see how easy it is for someone to conceive. Other annoyances? We are having our first heat wave here and I have killed 6 scorpions in my house in the past month. I fucking hate bugs, especially ones that could potentially hurt my child. I don't sleep well because of this and so now I am irritated AND tired.
On a lighter note, I got a new camera from my husband for Mother's Day, which I am loving. I also get to indulge in my post-Mother's Day spa day tomorrow for three grand hours. I need a few hours to just clear my head and do something for me. Overall, I think I have been pretty calm with my range of emotions lately, but slowly I am starting to feel things creep up on me that I don't like. Maybe it is just because now I can count the amount of months I have been trying again on two hands. I don't know.
But anyway, maybe tomorrow will give me a chance to refocus and relax a little. Ovulation is approaching. I am pretending that it isn't important, but it has been weighing on my mind.








